Lately I have been living moment to moment. I am a new mother so really all of my plans are fairly immediate; things like when to change/feed/bathe/burp. I am really enjoying it. I have always been a girl who likes to plan for the future and have a dozen projects going at any given moment. I have often tried to live in the moment, but I've always found fleeting success with such attempts, until now.
This weekend I was talking with my youngest brother, Sam, about it. He asked if I feel as though I live in the past, the present or the future. A year ago I would have said all three, but now the answer is certainly that I am living in the moment. My future plans extend to later this day or maybe later this week, but mostly I am just hanging out in the present. I admit to looking at Bumblebee many times and having wondered what it must be like for her to have no major plans, to feel like she is completely in the moment. She seems so happy, so I have always assumed that it was pretty nice to live in the moment. I was right, it's really nice.
Sure, I have goals and plans, projects that are all somewhere in my future and they will get done, but they seem wonderfully foggy right now. Instead I am focusing on today and maybe just what my goals are for this day. So far my goals for today include:
- Getting this blog written.
- Getting dressed (in a cute outfit not anything lazy) and made up before 10am. Noon if Cordelia wakes up in a bad mood.
- Take Bumblebee and Cordelia for a walk.
- Listen to music with the girls (Cordelia, Bumblebee, Ophelia and Mia).
- Have a snack at 10am, this is a time honored tradition (Jennifer J. I bet you can guess what snack I'm having!).
- Do the dishes and maybe run a few errands late this afternoon.
- Gazing at Cordelia. This will probably take up the bulk of my day.
- Spending time with Eric and Cordelia this evening.
- I am sure that I will talk with my parents at some point today. Either talk or text, for some reason my parents are really into texting, they even use weird text lingo.