Tuesday, November 9, 2010

What Sacrifice?

Last night was a long night, actually this past week (month) has been full of long nights. The kind of long nights that only other parents can ever truly understand.

Cordelia asleep

I found myself pulled from slumber, slipping down a tunnel from a dream and back into reality. For a moment I was accosted with sound that seemed to mingle with my last dream (last night I was in the midst of a dream about a cool new art/hang out place called Harf Anng) and I couldn't place the sound. Oh yes, it hit me, I am a mother and that sound was my little lady. She's been struggling with teething lately and apparently it's most troublesome to her at night.

I sat up just enough to catch a glimpse of the sickly green light of the clock telling me it was only just after midnight. I knew I was in for it. I soothed her and got her back to sleep and was just drifting off again when the cycle repeated. Over and over every couple of hours. I finally gave up around 6am.

I took Cordelia out to the couch where we just sat there in a daze, under the glowing yellow lights of the two lamps I turned on. The heater rumbled to a start and breathed its warm breath over us, enhancing the strange mood of the morning.

Eventually we roused enough to begin our day. I did the math and realized I probably patch-worked together about 6 hours of sleep, enough for me to function on. I reminded myself that parenthood is about sacrifice and then it hit me...what exactly am I sacrificing? I spent the night cuddling the most precious gift. I get to be her mother. I am the one and only that gets this wonderful job. I am just so thankful that I am here, that I get to be the one to comfort her in the night, to snuggle her in the morning.


moonmother said...

Hey lady, the joys of sleeplessness that's what I'm going to chalk your cheer disposition up to..lol
There are these teething tablets, well there actually balls. All natural I even think you can get them at Walmart. I can't remember the name but if you ask the pharmacist she'll likely know. They are a god send. you can mix them in her bottle or just give her oral. I'll admit this to you though, I did spread a little whiskey on their gums once just to see and it worked like a charm. But I don't really see you as the whiskey drinker, but then again who knows..lol
Hope she gets back to sleep-full nights soon

affectioknit said...

Awww! Bless your hearts...

Momma CupKate said...

I've been sleeping an average of 3 hours a night for months, and this post hit home. Thank you for reminding me what my priorities Should be.

Elle (thewaybyelle.blogspot.com) said...

I understand completely! Our son didn't sleep through the night until he was nearly 2 years old. It was awful. It seemed like no matter what we tried to do, he still wouldn't sleep.
Thankfully, I stay at home with him, so I didn't miss any work because of it.
I hope she is doing better. :)

eLiZaBeTh said...

I love this picture of your little lady...you are a wonderful momma:)

bel said...

So true! And the photo seems so perfect, too. It's such a relief when your baby is struggling but finally makes it to sleep, even for a moment.

Good luck!

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