Of course I am feeling a lot more mellow about the whole experience, because this is not my first time through the process....well that was what I have been telling myself, but this morning as the light shone in through the window I realized that I have only done all of this exactly once before and that was nearly three years ago. Last time I checked that kind of experience does not make me an expert.
I talked myself down by realizing that I could turn my energy to list making. I find list making to be oddly comforting, even though I tend to throw the list out at the last minute---it all stays in my head. So, I am going to start at the most important (no it isn't) part, the packing of the hospital bag. I think with my first pregnancy I had started this process at three months, I was pretty eager. Now, the list will remain here for another month and a half.
I think I will need:
- Video camera, for Cordelia's first meeting of her sibling. I am not earthy enough to want to relive the birth experience through film. Once is enough thank you very much.
- Something, or a couple of options for clothes to take her home in. I think I had something like 5 outfits for Cordelia, that now seems excessive.
- Vegan snacks for myself and our crew. There are some vegan food options at the cafeteria, but we will all appreciate a few additional munchies.
- Diapers and wipes. I know that the hospital will provide me with them, but I cannot kill the urge to pack them as well.
- Thank you cards. Last time I had such a big experience that I gave thank you cards to the doctors and nurses. I know it seems weird, but there will be some down time while I wait to leave and punching out a few thank you cards in the controlled hospital environment is way easier than when I get home and the madness really sets in, it will also help me keep track of gifts so nobody goes without gratitude.
- Bathrobe and pajamas. I felt so much more normal when I could just put on my own clothes instead of the hospital gown.
- Computer. We will want to spread the news to family with some photos and by we I mean Eric.
- Children's toys and DVDs. I have no idea how much time Cordelia will be there, but I want to be able to keep her happy. I assume that she will probably want to spend all of her time with the baby, but just in case the thrill of a silent sleeping bundle wears off then we should have something for her to do. I will probably add a few special big sister type gifts as well.
- My mother's book. I will, if I have a moment, want to write about my feelings and thoughts for both my new daughter and for the new big sister while the mood is still fresh.
- Car seat. Obviously they won't let us go without one.
- Crocheting. I bring it along to many places, but I anticipate that I will not be crocheting at all. I will be baby gazing and laying there in that beautiful baby fog.
- Music. I know some people swear by it, but from my previous experience I can tell you that I wasn't listening to anything. They could have been blaring Celine Dion's greatest hits for all I knew or cared.
- A birth plan. Ha ha ha. My birth plan is to have a baby, no need to type that up.
- Books and magazines. I specifically mean those birthing books, seriously who has time to read at that point?
- A baby book. Who knows why I brought one along last time around?