Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Home

I have moved so many times in my life that I am losing count. I know that I have moved more than 20 times. I also know that I am not done moving. No, I really don't have a wanderlust, life has just been somewhat nomadic for me. Since I have never really had a long term place that I call home I have just decided that the state of Montana is home for me. I blame it mostly on my father. He spent his entire life on a farm (below) in northern Montana. I spent my babyhood on this same farm, but moved away when I was still very young. Throughout my life we take periodic trips to this farm to see how things are growing.

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Nobody lives in the farmhouse anymore, though the land is still in use. When we go there, at first we all see a run down old farm house. The yard is overgrown, there is no sign that anybody has lived there in many many years. However, just give it a moment and my dad will take us all back in time. He tells stories about his childhood, his parents, his sisters and suddenly the whole place is alive again. I can see the places and stories from my father's memory and I can sense his deep connection to his past and to the land.

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Through him I have come to love the farm. I feel connected to my family and to his past. On a greater level I feel deeply connected to Montana as it is the only place I have ever really felt a strong sense of home and belonging.

Where do you belong or are you a nomad like me?

13 comments:

mrs boo radley said...

I, too, have a farm I call home...a farm far away from where I am now. I moved a lot during the past 6 years, and now have stayed in one spot for a bit!

To everything there is a season...a time to be nomadic and a time to stay put. I'm grateful that we are now settled and can get to know our community.

Tammie said...

i love this post.
i've moved a lot too. ( i just counted eleven moves off the top of my head, but im sure i could think of more.)
unlike you though, i think im done. once i get out of florida, i dont want to move anymore. im tired of it. plus, i personally dont have a place i really call "home" and i have yet to find where i really belong. i want for my children to not feel that way.

lovely post maria rose.

..... Carmen said...

I totally understand. Alberta is home to me for many the same reasons. I have lived in two other places (one country, one province) and have always known deep in my heart that the big sky and prairies are where I am supposed to be. Nate always talks about moving back to the ocean but I just couldn't fathom leaving HERE. I hope my kids growing up here will feel the same sense of connection.

AKM said...

I don't know where I belong. I'm like Holly Golightly without the fabulous wardrobe and outrageous parties. :-) I'm not crazy about being here in the Midwest, but I don't know where I should go. Sometimes I think I'd do better in a much more liberal place like San Francisco, Seattle, or Portland. Sometimes I think I should be a New Englander. Sometimes I miss the South, where I grew up.

Yeah, I just don't know.

Emily said...

Oklahoma is definitely home for me. Like your dad, my dad grew up on a farm in a small town south of Oklahoma City. His brothers and cousins and extended family still work the land there. My mom's family is all from Oklahoma as well. There is a deep sense of "this is where I came from" for me. And even my New Yorker husband likes living here. Even if we move one day, OK will always be homebase.

Robin said...

You know I'm with you on this one for the place!

Stacy said...

I definitely consider Buffalo home. Family is there and it is where I'm most connected; with people, places, memories. That said, my second home is DC. I have so many friends there and consider it my cocoon of comfort and love as well.

Pam Brewer said...

North Dakota is my home. My great-grandparents homesteaded 20 miles from where I live now. My mother lives on the farm where she and my father farmed for 50 years, and my grandfather before that. I lived in Wyoming for 7 years and found it fascinating to learn another proud culture of hardy people. But, back in North Dakota, I'm home. I find deep satisfaction in my work as a cancer nurse, taking care of "my people". The smells of the earth and the wind blowing through the trees is unique here. I feel deeply connected and content.

the dwellers said...

I love seeing these photos. I have heard so many great stories about your family's farm. Stories involving lots of homemade cinnamon rolls... no wonder your dad loves that place! :)

It is partly that connection to being raised on a farm (in N. Montana no less) that has led us to this new place. I hope we can create that for our kids too.

Gen said...

I'm not sure yet but I think I have an idea. My father lived in an amazing valley surrounded by beautful forrest. I know that's where I would like to be one day & I have so many happy memories of my dad there.

Val said...

My DH and I joke about all the places we should not visit because we may wind up staying!

The truth though is that we are at home in our little house with a couple acres in northern MA. It's where I grew up so there is just something about it. Sure, I have dreams of a BIG farm instead of our little one. Dreams of lots of animals and a 'family' business. In reality though, I'm just set here for right now I think. It feels good.

dutchgirl said...

I am definitely a nomad, these days. Courtesy of Uncle Sam. You've got me beat, though, I haven't moved 20 times (yet). I will always consider Michigan my home, though. I know what you mean about the sense of belonging. I just know that it is highly unlikely I will ever live there again.

sophie said...

that first photo is amazing, looks like the outback here in Australia, just a vast expanse of land (I have never been to the outback before). I am definitely a nomad, poor Andrew wants to buy a home but I just can't deal with the idea of settling, I am always thinking of new places to go. We have been in this house the longest, nearly 3 years!!

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